tackling the second semester of uni

heyy guyyys!!!!
it is fast approaching the second semester of university and it is going to go so quick believe me. it feel like just a few weeks ago i was starting my university degree and i am now entering my very last semester and due to graduate in june (how crazy) i just cant believe how quick three years have gone. however there is some key things you need to make sure you do when do go back.

keep up the hard work cause the more work you put in the better you will be and also the greater you will get at your topic of study.

ensure you always give yourself some time to yourself to help you out with anything in which you do such as always ensure that you have some social time but don't over do it and forget about your studies

ensure you budget and only buy what is necessary. student finance goes so quickly and you will end up stuck for what to do.

ensure you turn up to your lectures there is always given hints and tips about what you need to get the best grade in your work.

eat plenty of food especially in the colder months as it will help you as every student gets freshurs flu again in the first few weeks of second semester.

i hope these tips have helped you if there is anything else you would like me to cover please let me know and i will help you out through further blog posts

That Time Of Year

as everyone is aware it ’tis the season to be jolly’ or Christmas or end of year depending on how you look at it and as yes it can be such a joyous tie of the year for many people please take a thought for those who may be struggling at this time of year

people whom are for example homeless or without a family to go to throughout this festive period can be quite hard so please always be polite to those around us and you never know what it is people are going through right at this time. as a community we must be friendly helpful and there for others around us

also through this festive period depression anxiety and other mental health issues are on the rise so please don’t be pressuring to people around just be supportive and also if you are struggling and do need support remember there is always someone whom you can talk to. i understand it seems hard and daunting at time but i promise you, you are an amazing person and you will get the support you need

here i will attach the list of services that can be spoken to during these times if need be and please do talk don’t feel like you have to keep the feelings all to yourself i know for a fact you are all great people and are all perfect in your own ways

instant counselling this is a service where you can ring up and gain the support you are needing or wanting and they will talk to you and give you that support. it also gives you the opportunity to choose who you speak to with a list of peoples names and images online which is perfect in my opinion to help you feel more comfortable you know who you are talking to roughly rather than someone you haven’t even seen before

samaritans one of the more well known mental health services around where i live. they support you and give you advice and are also just there if you need someone to talk to. they also have a phone number to call when you need to speak to them. 116 123 

i hope this will help you and if there are any others you feel should be added to the list please let me know and i will add them on

lets support our community

new blog site

www.keepingkayleigh.wordress.com

would be awesome if you could check this out a lot more structured and relatable to many

TW !!!!a day in my life with anxiety!!!!

not to long ago i had to come out of my comfort zone and really look at things a different way and overcome the worry and nervous thoughts of traveling on my own.

i had to come back to uni before my little sisters 5th birthday so i had to try and get back home on my own so that i could see her as i have never missed her birthday and i have never missed any of her developmental stages. it was so hard waking up that morning knowing i had to travel back literally freaked me out.

it was 7:00am and i woke up and i felt as though i was frozen i couldn't move my whole body felt as though it was stuck and i was only able to blink and think and it was almost like torture. i then took a deep breath in it felt as though i was lying there for days however i was probably only lying there for like 30 mins. i finally picked up the courage to get up. the only thing that made me feel better was the thought of seeing my baby sister who wasn't expecting to  see me was making me through the day.

i got up and got washed and dressed probably going so slowly cause it took me two hours i then sat back on my bed and laid down and worried about literally everything. like have i packed everything have i got enough time and i literally worried i could have got on the bus sooner but i kept panicking over the silliest of things possible.

i just laid on the bed and i watched YouTube for about 30 mins looked at the clock and though there is a bus in 10 mins but i thought i couldn't do it carried on watching YouTube. after looking at the time at it being 11:00 i decided i had to go i got everything on and went to the door i stood at the door debating with myself whether i should go or whether i should ring and say i couldn't make it.

i then took a deep breath in and left i walk to the bus stop and got on the bus. i walked all the way to the back of the bus and sat down worrying that everyone was looking at me and i had these horrid thoughts in my head about why are they looking at me, what have i done, do they know me, i felt so insecure at that point felt like i was on the bus for a lifetime but was only 15 minutes.

i then got of the bus and did the awkward fast walk to the station to try and not be noticed by anyone and i went to get my ticket. i had to use the ticket machine because the thought of being on my own talking to someone at the desk for the ticket too hard to do. i then got to the platform worrying i was going to miss the train but luckily i made it with 5 minutes to spare.

the train slowly pulled into the station and i was able to get on there and i found a seat as close to the door as possible and sat by the window and looked out and i was physically shaking and i rang my mum to let her know i was on my way back. i then sat and looked out of the window and worried about the change on the train to switch to go to where i needed to go.

we were pulling into the station and the tanoy said the train is delayed until a space is available for it and i had noticed i hadn't had much time to try and get to the next train and i got really worried. i started breathing really heavily and started going dizzy.

the train eventually pulled into the station at the time my other train was due to leave i ran of the train worried i left something on the train and i kept running as i didn't want to miss my sisters birthday but at the same time had the worry that i left something on the train.

luckily the next train was delayed too so i just made it as the door where about to close. i had a horrid feeling i was going to get trapped in the door and that worried me so much. however, i didn't get trapped thankfully. i went and sat down again close to the door and by a window. not sure why i feel like seeing where i am going makes me feel a little bit better i guess.

we then carried on with the journey then got asked for my ticket. i then panicked again incase i lost my ticket or something was wrong and the lady was being recorded for some training purposes and that made me even more anxious however, because she was being recorded i had to try and keep calm so they didn't noticed. thinking i would be used door training purposes really worried me. it was horrid on the inside i was breaking down but on the outside i had to act as though this was the best day of my life it really wasn't.

eventually we got to my stop and i nearly forgot to get of the train but luckily i did just in time. i then had to do a two mile walk from the station to my house and i felt as though everyone was looking at me the whole time. i walked past people i know and a school full of children leaving on study break in year 10/11 (im only guessing this from the time and the fact it was the school a friend of mine went to and this seemed the most possible option).

i eventually got home i was very shaky but glad to have arrived safely. i set up the presents on the table for my little sister and i waited till it was time to pick her up and i spoke to my little brother, mum and nan for a while whilst we had lunch and it made me feel a little bit more relaxed. it was then time to go and get my sister.

i felt a little relaxed knowing where i was going and that i was with my family. we walked to the school gates all was going well and then my nan had a fall and she landed on her face and really hurt herself i panicked then worried about what was going to happen i then stepped up and got someone to get her help got mum to stay with her and went and got my sister.

my sister saw me and she ran up to me and cried she was so happy to see me. i had such a thrill seeing how happy she was to see me and i was so glad she was happy to see me and i feel that this made things all worth while for me to travel down to see her.

we then went over to the doctors and nan got checked luckily it was just bruising and not much else. we then went home and i got my sister to open her present from me and nan and she loved them all and she kept giving me hugs.

then we played some party games and then dad got home and gave presents from our other nan and great grandparents. something didn't feel right i felt anxious again and i just put it down to me worrying about needing to go back to uni and the journey back. i then watched my sister open her stuff then went to pack my bag again and made sure i had everything i must have checked about 12 times then i walked into the kitchen to my dad telling me that my grandad had died and i just remember crying and i new something wasn't right.

i at that point felt even worse more anxiety but i needed to get back to uni. with the thought of other things i had to check i had everything again cause i forgot if i had everything or not. i checked another 12ish times and dad rang me a taxi as he didn't want me to walk in the dark on my own (which i really didn't want to do myself anyway) i then checked twice more that  i had everything and i said goodbye to my sister which was another horrible thing to do i hate leaving her but i have to to go to uni.

i got into the taxi worried about the journey back and upset about nan and my grandad and i hate being in a car with a stranger on my own as well i was physically shaking i hated every moment of it. i then got to the station early enough to get on the direct train back to uni which wasn't to bad. i remember a friend of mine ringing me the whole journey back and me upset down the phone to her and i am so grateful for friends like this cause it was really what i needed at this moment.

my friend then offered to pick me up from the station and had a chat in the car on the way back which was lovely so i didn't have to catch the bus on my own. i then got back to my room by roughly 9pm and my friend stayed till around 10ish and then i got ready for bed and i just couldn't sleep i had to much going on in my head.

this was supposed to have been the best day seeing my baby sister (the little princess) turn five. however, it turned into an awful day and im glad she had a good day and i am glad i went home to see her as i would never be able to forgive myself if i didn't go but some of the things that happened i felt awful.

having anxiety isn't nice and i really do worry that it will effect me in more ways that one i know i managed to get home and back safely and it didn't harm me physically but i feel i wont be able to go back on my own again because all the stuff that happened that day. i feel as though it was my fault all the bad stuff happened and i felt if i stayed at uni i would have been able to stop the bad stuff from happening.

however since this day i have been trying to think of things more positively and i feel i will eventually get there. i have spoke to the doctors and will probably speak to them again since i feel it isn't getting any better. i urge people do speak out about these things i know its hard but sometimes it has to be done.

thankyou if you have read this far x

where have i been? what will i do?

so it has been a difficult year so far and i am now saying today is my new start to my new year and hopefully it will be a good one. i actually cant believe we are now into the third month of the year it has gone so quickly it is unreal.

however, as it is a new day a new month and also now the start of advent we are all able to make changes in our lives to ensure we are all being more healthy. i am currently trying to eat more cleanly and more healthily as i haven't been very well since coming into 2017 and hoping this will help me in the long run.

i will also be trying to look at the positives of the week and trying to be genuinely a lot more positive in my everyday thinking. having a few close deaths in my family recently has shown me we never know when it will be the end so we should live each day to the fullest and try and be more positive and not let things get to us so easily.

hopefully i will upload on this blog a lot more reguarly from now on as i feel this is a good place to talk and feel more free and the community here are so friendly and its a great atmosphere.

My Day To Day Favourite's Routine 2016/2017!!!!

hello beauties,
I am back with yet another fun filled blog, it has been a long time coming and i am so excited to be back last year wasn't the best but we will make this year the best possible year. sorry i haven't been blogging much recently as i have been really ill and extremely busy but i am getting better now and have some spare time and i hope you are all supportive of this. i am kicking of my blog today with a review of my favourite makeup products of 2016/2017 so far and how i have been using them as my day to day makeup routine.

the links to the web pages to buy the products will be underlined and a different colour prices are next to the images.


i store all my makeup and application brushes in my zoella we three beauties makeup bags for travel and in storage draws when at home.
£4:99

my freshen up:

lets start of with a making a fresh base for our make up i lather my face in some zoella gingerbread shower cream and wash with warm water this ensure any impurities in the face get lifted out and then you are able to start the day fresh.
£6:99
after washing my face i really enjoy using a coconut scented moisturiser by the body shop to soften my face and ensure there is a fresh level base to put my makeup on.
£6:00


the main base:
this is when i start to apply my makeup i start by using benefit " licence to blot" around my cheeks and forehead to blot any impurities of area where your make up tends to rub of with the natural day to day activities.
£15.50
i then use the benefit pro balm pore minimilizer Primer on my t zone so nose chin and forehead to cover any larger pore or any pores that may be left open. i have noticed this also covers up blemishes and small spots very well and make them look flatter and invisible almost.
£24.50
i then add boots natural collection corrector stick in the same areas and under my eyes just for more coverage but i don't necessarily need to do this.
£1.99
then i put a pump of my number 7 foundation in the shade calico and use my real techniques foundation brush and blend it into my face remember to blend down my neck and my ears to not have any visible lines around my face.
£14.50
i then go over the top of my foundation and set it with translucent powder also from number 7 i do this with the blusher brush by real techniques. now i know the brush is for blusher but many of you out there probably also use different brushes for different things they where not initially made for.
£11:50
i then use Anastasia Beverly hills contour kit in light and contour my lower cheek bones my jaw line and my forehead i also do two lines on either side of my nose and then i use a pale colour to go around the darker shades to blend and i use the lighter shade down the center of my nose. i then use the banana powder around my eyes. i apply and blend this with a real techniques buffer brush.
£39:00
the addition to the base:
in addition to my base i sometimes add blusher from Lipsy in a cheek pallet in a lovely pink colour and the pigmentation from this pallet is just wonderful i put the blusher on my cheek bones. i then from the same pallet use a strongly pigmented silver highlighter and i put this just above my blusher.

my eyes:
for my eyes i prime then first using urban decay eye primer potion in the colour eden however i have used the original and they both for me do a fantastic job. i rub this on my eyes using my eye buffer brush from real techniques ensuring i have got it covered all over and blended well.
£16:00
i then use my urban decay naked 3 more than my other collections of eye shadow pallets i love the rose gold tones so i use my rose gold naked 3 pallet and i put the colour buzz in the crease of my eye and blend it out using the brush given in the pallet i then go just bellow it and put dust on the lid. i then use the shade trick all over my lid. i then blend all of these shades together on my eye and add the shade strange to the inner corner of my eye and a small bit of blackheart on the outer corner of my eye. i then blend them in to create a beautifly, shiney, shimmery, smokey effect
£38:50

i then use number 7 dramatic lift mascara on my eye lashes top and bottom i feel this mascara gives me an amazing effect on my lashes and i just love it.
£13:50
my lips:
after my lip balm has been absorbed i then use my kylie jenner lip kits i have been loving the Koko K and Candy K shades im really loving the nude shades on my lips and feel a nude lip works very well with a shiney, smokey eye. i sometimes line my lips and other time i don't just depends on the look and if i feel confident with the application of the matt liquid lip
£24:00

the total for this make-up collection is ----  £216:97  ---- all these products are long lasting and definitely worth the investment. obviously you don't need to buy all or even any of this you just get what you like. remember these are just my preferences.
REMEMBER---- there are always sales on and other places to get the makeup so don't worry about the expenses as sometimes you can get it for a lot cheaper.
let me know what you think of this in the comments and comment any blogs you would like to see me do
xoxo